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Sophia of Yaldabaoth ([personal profile] ia) wrote in [community profile] abraxasnet2022-11-30 04:13 pm

everyone

Hi. This is Sophia...not really speaking. Thinking? Projecting words into your unsuspecting eyes. I think? This is quite something.

I won't bother you much with my shock and awe about finding myself in a new place. I'm sure there's enough people experiencing the same things than me in your close vicinity. Help them, if you would. I'm sure they will appreciate it.

My reason to send this message is to offer my own help, in one way or another. Back in my world I was finally getting settled into what I had decided to call Dream Therapy. Basically, I can help you dwell into whatever issues you have and find positive, healthy ways to deal with them.

In your dreams. Weird, I know.

I've found that it's easier to visualize and deal with things one feel and think when you can make the issues literally show themselves. Ultimately it's all symbolic of course, but the learning one makes from it it's real indeed.

We can also just talk it out wide awake, I have some training in the more normal type of stuff.

Goodness, this has taken all too much space already. I'll just leave it at that. I don't really need payment of any sort, by the way. Just knowing I'm doing my part is enough.

Anyway, do let me know if you ever need something along those lines. Or if you just want to talk. I feel like I will have much free time for a while.
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[personal profile] enactors 2022-11-30 10:49 pm (UTC)(link)
my experience is circumstantial. an adjacency more than anything else, primarily linked to somnological studies gone awry.

—I protect those who travel at night. you can see how dreamers would be a component.
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[personal profile] enactors 2022-11-30 11:01 pm (UTC)(link)
!

( sent first before being swiftly followed up with— )

the second. high priest of khonshu, egyptian god of the moon.

they're not related.
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[personal profile] enactors 2022-12-01 08:25 am (UTC)(link)
there's no need for formalities. just marc is fine.

to clarify, the studies weren't mine. I was the clean-up crew. interesting problem-solver.


( he starts to write something along the lines of 'my issues are' then stops. scribbles it out and starts again. )

my therapist at home specializes in superhero menticide. a partial relevance, the rest is much more mundane. she had the benefit of knowing who I was before she started working with me. I'm aware I can be difficult due to some of my more challenging aspects, which I would be happy to discuss in detail before either of us make a decision.

where are you located?
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[personal profile] enactors 2022-12-01 08:10 pm (UTC)(link)
text-based humor, my one weakness.

you mean nocwich and horizon?
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[personal profile] enactors 2022-12-01 08:27 pm (UTC)(link)
you might be shocked to learn jokes aren't exactly my forte either.

I've certainly been more reckless but in the interest of success, in-person is probably the better shout.
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[personal profile] enactors 2022-12-01 08:49 pm (UTC)(link)
well... between you and I, I'm going to hope there's not too much else.

horizon, then.
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[personal profile] enactors 2022-12-01 09:32 pm (UTC)(link)
I'll leave that for you to decide.

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dissociative identity disorder.
brain damage — the official line is that my mind has been "irrevocably changed" by commune with an outer-terrestrial being.

the other official line is I'm just crazy, which isn't wrong either.
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[personal profile] enactors 2022-12-01 10:27 pm (UTC)(link)
( first— )
1. correct. 2. no. I developed DID as a child, long before khonshu came into my life. my understanding is the latter means the former presents atypically.

technically, what are you?


( second— )
don't get me wrong, I'm not using the term to make light of my condition, but there are actions and choices that can be very difficult to defend. logically speaking.

the two don't necessarily go hand-in-hand.
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[personal profile] enactors 2022-12-02 08:40 pm (UTC)(link)
please. I was brought back to life by a moon god. I don't think I'm in any position to judge. still, that explains the affinity for dreams. ( or so he assumes. )

no. my condition is under control.

I mean to say ( what, exactly? her assertion is pretty much on the money, which is to say — does he regret the turn the conversation's taken? yes. does he regret starting the conversation in the first place? also yes. does he wish he could just ignore the conversation and leave it here? yep.

the half-sentence sits unfinished for a moment or two: for marc, there's a difference between being different — which he is and knows he is — and everything else. )
I am not a nice man, sophia. the reason I was seeing a therapist at home was not because I have DID. in fact, we rarely talk about that. ( a fact that, whilst it hasn't escaped marc's notice, isn't something he's chosen to truly, really linger on the whys of. instead, he's filed it away with all the other 'let's ignore this until I'm forced to deal with it by external forces' problems. )

I'll be candid with you: I tried to take over the world. I was told and I did. it's a common theme.
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[personal profile] enactors 2022-12-02 09:09 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm Jewish. ( or: yes, very, very vaguely. etymology and an interest in languages. ) bringer of chaos? ( doesn't sound quite right but whatever. )

less common than you'd think. but amongst other reasons, that's why I don't really take offense to being called crazy.
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[personal profile] enactors 2022-12-03 09:24 am (UTC)(link)
hmm, interesting. frankly, I don't trust anyone that tries to convince anyone else they're not "that bad".

stories are the currency of gods. his exist for a reason.

...that's something else you and I share in common.

"faith".
( heh. ) that's cute. deliberate?
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[personal profile] enactors 2022-12-03 04:53 pm (UTC)(link)
my understanding of gods in my world is that it depends on the god. the egyptian pantheon has limited influence on the modern world, as one might expect. they exist primarily in the overvoid - trapped, but able to project their consciousness. others, like the æsir, exist alongside mortals and their existence has no relation to belief.

still others, like the one my father worshipped, are... seemingly indifferent.

a mixed bag.

it is, isn't it?
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[personal profile] enactors 2022-12-03 05:26 pm (UTC)(link)
khonshu tends to be a fan of vengeance — and in his more interesting moments, hearts.
my experience with other gods is somewhat lacking.

mm, you know what they say: quit while you're ahead.

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