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abraxasnet2022-11-30 04:13 pm
ia) wrote in abraxasnet2022-11-30 04:13 pm
everyone
Hi. This is Sophia...not really speaking. Thinking? Projecting words into your unsuspecting eyes. I think? This is quite something.
I won't bother you much with my shock and awe about finding myself in a new place. I'm sure there's enough people experiencing the same things than me in your close vicinity. Help them, if you would. I'm sure they will appreciate it.
My reason to send this message is to offer my own help, in one way or another. Back in my world I was finally getting settled into what I had decided to call Dream Therapy. Basically, I can help you dwell into whatever issues you have and find positive, healthy ways to deal with them.
In your dreams. Weird, I know.
I've found that it's easier to visualize and deal with things one feel and think when you can make the issues literally show themselves. Ultimately it's all symbolic of course, but the learning one makes from it it's real indeed.
We can also just talk it out wide awake, I have some training in the more normal type of stuff.
Goodness, this has taken all too much space already. I'll just leave it at that. I don't really need payment of any sort, by the way. Just knowing I'm doing my part is enough.
Anyway, do let me know if you ever need something along those lines. Or if you just want to talk. I feel like I will have much free time for a while.
I won't bother you much with my shock and awe about finding myself in a new place. I'm sure there's enough people experiencing the same things than me in your close vicinity. Help them, if you would. I'm sure they will appreciate it.
My reason to send this message is to offer my own help, in one way or another. Back in my world I was finally getting settled into what I had decided to call Dream Therapy. Basically, I can help you dwell into whatever issues you have and find positive, healthy ways to deal with them.
In your dreams. Weird, I know.
I've found that it's easier to visualize and deal with things one feel and think when you can make the issues literally show themselves. Ultimately it's all symbolic of course, but the learning one makes from it it's real indeed.
We can also just talk it out wide awake, I have some training in the more normal type of stuff.
Goodness, this has taken all too much space already. I'll just leave it at that. I don't really need payment of any sort, by the way. Just knowing I'm doing my part is enough.
Anyway, do let me know if you ever need something along those lines. Or if you just want to talk. I feel like I will have much free time for a while.
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no. my condition is under control.
I mean to say ( what, exactly? her assertion is pretty much on the money, which is to say — does he regret the turn the conversation's taken? yes. does he regret starting the conversation in the first place? also yes. does he wish he could just ignore the conversation and leave it here? yep.
the half-sentence sits unfinished for a moment or two: for marc, there's a difference between being different — which he is and knows he is — and everything else. ) I am not a nice man, sophia. the reason I was seeing a therapist at home was not because I have DID. in fact, we rarely talk about that. ( a fact that, whilst it hasn't escaped marc's notice, isn't something he's chosen to truly, really linger on the whys of. instead, he's filed it away with all the other 'let's ignore this until I'm forced to deal with it by external forces' problems. )
I'll be candid with you: I tried to take over the world. I was told and I did. it's a common theme.
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And you might not consider yourself nice, or even good, but you're here, talking to me, seeking to do something about it.
So you went batshit insane and decided to take over the world and become an evil overlord, or some version of it. Big whoop. I don't know much about superheroes but it seems like a common trope.
[ Sorry, she doesn't read comics. ]
Specially since it seems there was someone telling you to. Your agency is important, but I do believe your circumstances are a bit more complicated.
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less common than you'd think. but amongst other reasons, that's why I don't really take offense to being called crazy.
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According to him that's unfortunately the tale people that know him knows about, but he claims to not be all that bad.
He's still very sketchy, but I literally owe him my life.
Well, we can always work things out. I have faith we can at least sort some things out.
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stories are the currency of gods. his exist for a reason.
...that's something else you and I share in common.
"faith". ( heh. ) that's cute. deliberate?
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Not that he's not strong enough to do whatever he wants, but gods have ways to interact with the world.
Deities in my world feed on belief, yes. They both exist due to the collective consciousness, but predate it. Whether they owe their existence to us or vice versa, it's hard to tell.
[ She chuckles. Words. Words are awesome, fuck yeah.
She's such a nerd. ]
Unintended, but fitting.
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still others, like the one my father worshipped, are... seemingly indifferent.
a mixed bag.
it is, isn't it?
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Hopefully we don't need to deal with them here.
Never been good at puns...or humor. I'll try to not test my luck.
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my experience with other gods is somewhat lacking.
mm, you know what they say: quit while you're ahead.
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Honestly I haven't met any other gods other than Yaldabaoth, and him I've only met five times so far. I don't expect this trend to continue back home, but at least it's not an issue while I'm here.
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seth, once or twice. anubis. anput. ammut. thor.
I suspect if khonshu wished to talk to me here, he could. I'm yet to discover anything that could silence him other than his own will.
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Yaldabaoth has always appeared in the material plane whenever he wants to talk, so we'll see. Well, hopefully now.
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you wouldn't want yaldabaoth's assistance here?
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Anything else I ask of him will come with a prize.
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( marc can't entirely relate — his relationship with khonshu has often been fraught. occasionally, khonshu has abandoned him — sometimes with clear reason, sometimes without; other times, they've been quote-unquote estranged more for marc's reasons than khonshu's, though marc has always agreed and accepted the price asked for khonshu's aid.
it has occurred to him that khonshu's silence now was less a quirk of this place and either punishment or penance for marc's actions after the age of khonshu. )
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We'll see how it goes.
Whatever the case, I hope we have a chance to meet sometime soon, if only to know each other personally.
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( that is to say: marc has called upon khonshu, specifically, more times than he'd have ever thought he'd have turned to prayer before dying (the first time).
there's a lengthy delay between that message and the next one he sends. there's an easy, glib response to her message: horizon's there, nocwich is there, whichever is easier and more convenient for the two of them.
but the sentiment of wanting to meet isn't one that's thrown marc's way too often, not outside of being needed or wanted as moon knight or mr. knight, and even that's relatively few and far between, all depending on who's doing the asking.
more than that, though, he knows that stability, a support structure — any of it and all of it — is something that he needs. he likes to think (wants to think) that he's wholly capable by himself (frenchie's gone, marlene's gone — before reese and soldier and tigra, it was just him), but historically, that's never worked out that well for him.
eventually, then— )
that would be nice, sophia.
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Sometimes we can't do good, or fine, we can do nice. It has to count for something.