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[ordinar]

[At some point, when he's exhausted down to his bones but knows he won't be able to sleep yet, it hits Wilhelm that the people who might normally take it upon themselves to make an announcement in this situation are, for the most part, sitting in jail or lying low in Nott. Then, tentatively, he arrives at the terrifying conclusion that he could actually qualify as a responsible adult.

So, here goes.]

Hey everyone.

Um.

Castle Thorne was bombed earlier tonight. Or, I don't know if they were bombs exactly, but there were huge flashes of light when they hit.

As far as I know, no Summoned were injured badly. A lot of soldiers were killed though. I think the wards around the castle protected it from the worst of the blast, but it did get damaged.

I don't know if anywhere else in Thorne was attacked. I haven't heard anything from Nott.

I saw one of the devices that was dropped, or what was left of it. It was metal and had an arcana sign engraved on it. I think we can assume it's from the Free Cities.

Anyway, that's...pretty much everything I know. If you have more info, go ahead and share it.

[Threadjacking encouraged, obviously. This message is sent a few hours after the attack.]

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[ordinar]

It just feels too real.

Last time something like this happened, we avoided an all out war. I don't think we'll be that lucky again.

been on hiatus! if you wanna drop all's good

[restingstitchface]

𝒫𝑒𝓇𝒽𝒶𝓅𝓈 𝓃𝑜𝓉. 𝐵𝓊𝓉 𝒶𝓉 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓈 𝓅𝑜𝒾𝓃𝓉 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝒸𝒶𝓃𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝓈𝓉𝑜𝓅 𝒾𝓉. 𝒴𝑜𝓊 𝒸𝒶𝓃 𝑜𝓃𝓁𝓎 𝒸𝑜𝓃𝓉𝓇𝑜𝓁 𝓎𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝓇𝑒𝓈𝓅𝑜𝓃𝓈𝑒.

[Whatever "it" might be? He decides not to elaborate.]

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[ordinar]

Control my response...

How do I make myself not worry about it?

[restingstitchface]

𝒲𝑒𝓁𝓁, 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓌𝑜𝓇𝓁𝒹 𝒾𝓈𝓃'𝓉 𝒸𝑜𝓁𝓁𝒶𝓅𝓈𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒶𝓇𝑜𝓊𝓃𝒹 𝓎𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝑒𝒶𝓇𝓈. 𝐼 𝒸𝒶𝓃'𝓉 𝓈𝒶𝓎 𝒾𝓉 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝒷𝑒 𝑒𝒶𝓈𝓎, 𝒷𝓊𝓉 𝐼 𝓈𝓊𝑔𝑔𝑒𝓈𝓉 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝒶𝓈𝓀 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓌𝓇𝑜𝓃𝑔 𝓆𝓊𝑒𝓈𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃.

𝒴𝑜𝓊 𝓈𝒽𝑜𝓊𝓁𝒹𝓃'𝓉 𝒷𝑒 𝓌𝑜𝓃𝒹𝑒𝓇𝒾𝓃𝑔 "𝒽𝑜𝓌 𝒹𝑜 𝐼 𝓈𝓉𝑜𝓅 𝓂𝓎𝓈𝑒𝓁𝒻 𝒻𝓇𝑜𝓂 𝓌𝑜𝓇𝓇𝓎𝒾𝓃𝑔?" 𝒴𝑜𝓊 𝓈𝒽𝑜𝓊𝓁𝒹 𝒷𝑒 𝒶𝓈𝓀𝒾𝓃𝑔, "𝐻𝑜𝓌 𝒸𝒶𝓃 𝐼 𝓁𝒾𝓋𝑒 𝓌𝒾𝓉𝒽 𝒾𝓉"?

[ordinar]

Ok, fine.

So how can I live with it?

[restingstitchface]

𝐵𝓎 𝒻𝒾𝓃𝒹𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓈𝓊𝓅𝓅𝑜𝓇𝓉. 𝐵𝓎 𝓉𝒶𝓁𝓀𝒾𝓃𝑔. 𝐵𝓎 𝓂𝒶𝒾𝓃𝓉𝒶𝒾𝓃𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒶 𝓈𝓉𝓇𝒾𝒸𝓉 𝓇𝑜𝓊𝓉𝒾𝓃𝑒 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓈𝒽𝒶𝓇𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓎𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝒻𝑒𝑒𝓁𝒾𝓃𝑔𝓈. 𝒯𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝓌𝑜𝓊𝓁𝒹 𝒷𝑒 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝑜𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇𝓈 𝒶𝒹𝓋𝒾𝓈𝑒. 𝐼, 𝒽𝑜𝓌𝑒𝓋𝑒𝓇, 𝒶𝒹𝓋𝒾𝓈𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝓉𝑜 𝓌𝒽𝑜𝓂 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝓈𝒽𝒶𝓇𝑒 - 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓌𝒽𝑒𝓃 𝑜𝓇 <𝒾>𝒾𝒻 - 𝒾𝓈 𝑒𝓃𝓉𝒾𝓇𝑒𝓁𝓎 𝓌𝒾𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃 𝓎𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝒸𝑜𝓃𝓉𝓇𝑜𝓁. 𝒴𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝓅𝑜𝓌𝑒𝓇 𝒾𝓈 𝑒𝓃𝓉𝒾𝓇𝑒𝓁𝓎 𝓅𝑒𝓇𝓈𝑜𝓃𝒶𝓁. 𝒴𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝒸𝒶𝓅𝒶𝒸𝒾𝓉𝓎 𝓉𝑜 𝓈𝒶𝓎 𝓃𝑜. 𝐵𝓎 𝒻𝒾𝓃𝒹𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓎𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝓋𝑜𝒾𝒸𝑒 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝒸𝒶𝓃 𝒸𝒽𝑜𝑜𝓈𝑒 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉𝑒𝓋𝑒𝓇 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝒹𝑒𝑒𝓂 𝒽𝑒𝓁𝓅𝒻𝓊𝓁.

𝐵𝓊𝓉 𝓃𝑒𝑒𝒹𝓁𝑒𝓈𝓈 𝓉𝑜 𝓈𝒶𝓎, 𝒶𝓋𝑜𝒾𝒹 𝒶𝓁𝒸𝑜𝒽𝑜𝓁 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒹𝓇𝓊𝑔𝓈.

[ordinar]

I've gotten pretty good at the routine thing.

Yeah, talking about it helps a little. But sometimes I don't even know how to say what I'm feeling. It's like it's all tangled up.

[restingstitchface]

𝒲𝑒𝓁𝓁, 𝓌𝓇𝒾𝓉𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓎𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝓉𝒽𝑜𝓊𝑔𝒽𝓉𝓈 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒻𝑒𝑒𝓁𝒾𝓃𝑔𝓈 𝒾𝓃𝓉𝑜 𝓌𝑜𝓇𝒹𝓈 𝓂𝒶𝓀𝑒𝓈 𝑒𝓋𝑒𝓇𝓎𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓉𝒶𝓃𝑔𝒾𝒷𝓁𝑒 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓁. 𝐵𝑒𝒸𝒶𝓊𝓈𝑒 𝑜𝓃𝒸𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝑜𝓈𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝑜𝓊𝑔𝒽𝓉𝓈 - 𝓎𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝒷𝑒𝓁𝒾𝑒𝒻𝓈 𝒶𝒷𝑜𝓊𝓉 𝓎𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝓈𝒾𝓉𝓊𝒶𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃 - 𝒶𝓇𝑒 𝑜𝓊𝓉 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇𝑒, 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝒽𝒶𝓋𝑒 𝓉𝑜 𝒶𝒸𝓀𝓃𝑜𝓌𝓁𝑒𝒹𝑔𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓂.

𝐵𝓊𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝓀𝓃𝑜𝓌𝓁𝑒𝒹𝑔𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓁𝒾𝓉𝓎? 𝐼𝓉 𝒻𝓇𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉𝑒𝓃𝓈 𝑒𝓋𝑒𝓇𝓎𝑜𝓃𝑒. 𝒮𝑜𝓂𝑒 𝓈𝒾𝓂𝓅𝓁𝓎 𝒽𝒾𝒹𝑒 𝒾𝓉 𝒷𝑒𝓉𝓉𝑒𝓇 𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓃 𝑜𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇𝓈. 𝒯𝒽𝒶𝓉'𝓈 𝒶𝓁𝓁.

[ordinar]

I write stuff down sometimes. I could try doing it more.

So it's about hiding your fear, not overcoming it.

[restingstitchface]

Precisely. One cannot overcome fear because fear is essential for survival. What people can do is learn to adapt and thrive regardless of its presence in their lives. If you welcome feeling happy why not learn to live with feeling scared? It's just the other side of the same coin.