( apollo is nowhere near as bad as his other sons, she'll admit that much. but there's a resentment that rears its ugly head for a brief moment, her cheeks fuming with a decade of bullshit and disrespect she's had to endure from apollo's kids. it's a kneejerk reaction, she knows. michael never bothered to listen to her point of view, never even bothered to consider the chariot wasn't actually the point. but when she reaches for the trigger, she finds it isn't there, the rapidly burning fuse of her anger fizzling out seconds before the bomb in her chest explodes.
she has every reason to be furious, even apollo can see that, but for the first time in her whole life, she might actually agree with him. or, at least enough that she can set her jaw and refrain from tearing into him just for the sake of argument. she hadn't believed him when he said he wanted to try this whole responsible adult thing, but ... she's not so blind she can't see this is a fairly valiant first effort. even chiron hadn't been on her side when she'd needed it the most (no, it's always clarisse who's throwing a temper tantrum; it's always ares cabin's fault when fights break out, regardless of who fucking started it; it's always her job to calm down, to apologize, to rein herself in even when she's completely fucking justified). still, it's strange to feel validated like this by someone in a position of power. by a god, no less. what the hell is she supposed to say to all this crap? )
Would've been a lot faster to say "wrong fight, wrong time"
( she's being flippant but it's the only way she knows how to save face here. she's not equipped or prepared to discuss her dad right now. her relationship with ares is complicated and messy, but of course there's no way for apollo to know the full extent of just how messy it is. the gods are distant, that's a given. but it's different when you've spent your whole life trying to prove your existence wasn't a mistake, fighting an uphill battle against the idea that you'd be better off, more worthy if you were a boy.
she wants to shout why didn't he protect me, then? who was there to protect me from him? — but it feels like there's a giant fist squeezing her heart, like her head is full of bees.
no, she's a big girl now. there's no crying in baseball. get it the fuck together. )
Not gonna lie, I never thought I'd hear you say anything nice about Ares
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she has every reason to be furious, even apollo can see that, but for the first time in her whole life, she might actually agree with him. or, at least enough that she can set her jaw and refrain from tearing into him just for the sake of argument. she hadn't believed him when he said he wanted to try this whole responsible adult thing, but ... she's not so blind she can't see this is a fairly valiant first effort. even chiron hadn't been on her side when she'd needed it the most (no, it's always clarisse who's throwing a temper tantrum; it's always ares cabin's fault when fights break out, regardless of who fucking started it; it's always her job to calm down, to apologize, to rein herself in even when she's completely fucking justified). still, it's strange to feel validated like this by someone in a position of power. by a god, no less. what the hell is she supposed to say to all this crap? )
Would've been a lot faster to say "wrong fight, wrong time"
( she's being flippant but it's the only way she knows how to save face here. she's not equipped or prepared to discuss her dad right now. her relationship with ares is complicated and messy, but of course there's no way for apollo to know the full extent of just how messy it is. the gods are distant, that's a given. but it's different when you've spent your whole life trying to prove your existence wasn't a mistake, fighting an uphill battle against the idea that you'd be better off, more worthy if you were a boy.
she wants to shout why didn't he protect me, then? who was there to protect me from him? — but it feels like there's a giant fist squeezing her heart, like her head is full of bees.
no, she's a big girl now. there's no crying in baseball. get it the fuck together. )
Not gonna lie, I never thought I'd hear you say anything nice about Ares